Moved

Ive completely moved my blog to rubydat98.tumblr.com
But i wanted to post one last blog, because no other place would accept my video.

When you love someone so much, how can you possibly walk away. The days and nights i wish i can extend, but i cant. I cant sleep, cant think, feel so lost since this past week and ive only been yearning for attention from me. Weird. I find myself praying in my dreams about him. I wake up the min the sun rises with him on my mind. Ive been falling asleep at 3 and waking up at 6 and its continuous when is it going to get easier? if someone told me id be affected this way id say they were lying, my heart feels like when you're on a rollercoaster and your anticipating the first drop and the minute you fall you feel like your heart is in your throat. Well that's exactly how i feel, i breathe and i feel like a 300 pound man is sitting on my stomach, and when i start crying i realize i could provide enough water to give the homeless lol. Leave it to me to try to find some joke out of this situation. The only thing i can say is i understand, his happiness always came before mine and that's how it will always be. If me not being around creates a better world for him then i want him to take it because i will always put him before my own, and i will always want him to be happy even if its not with me. But on another note i still hope my prayers&dreams come true. One day at least.